Yes, it is a lot like sticker shock!!
I decided that the time is now for me to go back to school and work on my degree. It is a goal of mine to get at least my bachelors, with finishing my associates seemingly a good starting point. Let me tell you, college people are not impressed if you do not have a major to declare. That sent me on this huge trip around and around the campus to clear it up and get “focused”.
Next on the agenda was to take placement tests as it has been a few years since I have been to school. I didn’t make it into regular algebra so I have to spend time and money getting caught up, though it will not count toward my degree. I was disappointed, and with all my recent mental work, I am okay with it, it just is. So now I have the frustration of having to take this class that will mean nothing, and on I go in this endeavor.
I am told I can register online, so I spend time figuring out their system, wait three days for my ID numbers, cannot register for this class at this time. Call the school. No, you need to go to advisement (again) before you can register for this class. Great. Two more trips in the heat to find massive lines, I call to see if I can just get an appointment. No, but if you come before your rooster crows, the line will be shorter.
I get up too early, run around, race to the school, wait over an hour, only to be told I must have reached a newbie at registration, I do not need advisement. Yes, I can spell FRUSTRATION! 
Back to registration, have to update my anitquated information because they did not get the form I faxed two weeks earlier when I was trying to register online. Registered, paid, sent to bookstore. Okay here it comes:
$ 165.00 for ONE book. 
Granted it is a BIG book but even by the pound it is $ 31.00 per pound and I can’t even eat it!! So I got another education…online textbooks. $ 69.00 (with the answers!)
Just trying to go to school is an education in itself. All this for a class that means nothing. Okay, it is a means to an end…but still.
She posted this incredible song, by Melissa Lawson for me. Though she did it and sent me the link a week ago, in God’s perfect timing I opened it today. Now while she is getting our lunch, I sit in a pool of tears. It is incredible how good it feels to be believed in, especially by someone whom I love and respect so much, and when others, who also love me, have tried to discourage me. There are more tears as I was self-doubting the last few days amidst oppressive migraines, and God knew today is when I needed to hear it. 
